Feeling crabby

I guess it is appropriate that I type on this page today because coming home woke up the crab in me. First of all, I woke up with a pulled neck muscle from sleeping crappy. Let the little one sleep with me and as usual she pushed me to the edge of the bed. Also, I put one of those foam topper on the bed and that doesn't seem to be helpful. Anyway, combined with back pain and now the neck hurting I already felt like crap. We stayed out all day but I didn't really enjoy it feeling the pain. We get home and there is no mail in the mail box. There was not mail yesterday. This happened a few years ago when someone was stealing my mail. I sure hope this isn't happening again cause I am waiting on my unemployment money. I feel like someone is targeting me. Maybe I am being paranoid, shoot I can't even spell. Good think for spell check!

I already feel bad about this move to a smaller place. I'm so torn. On one had, I love this house with it's problems and I want to stay with these roomy rooms, the freedom of not worrying about someone hearing us yell or have fun or whatever and just plain ole walking away. On the other had, worrying about the yard work, the maintenance, the payment and the mortgage company isn't helping.

I'm scared and I don't seem to have an outlet, someone to talk to, someone to just listen. Damn, I want someone to make these decisions or at least help me!!!